one time when i was young i watched a movie about a woman who had alzheimer's and who thought she was young and newly married even though she was in her 90's and her husband had died years earlier. and then i spent an unreasonable amount of time wondering if i was actually an old woman just imagining that i was young again.
the thought crossed my mind again yesterday and i realized that there'd be no way to prove to myself that i'm actually here right now and not there thinking i'm here. that's a very strange thing to think about.
excuse me. i'm going to go look in the mirror for a while.